Is he trying to make me say it?
Prying the words right from my heart.
Digging so deep where they are hidden?
Using compliments and flattery to do it?
Is he trying to make me say those few words
The words that I dare not speak out loud...
Is he trying to tell me something?
That I need to make the first move...
Is he falling for me?
Does he mean those things that he says?
Sweet, creative, strong, honest,
I'm not sure I can take much more of this.
I'm not sure if I won't just burst out and say
"I don't know! I'm wondering if theres something there! I want to know if what you say is true. I want to know why you say it and what you are thinking about! I want to say three words that might or might not be the best for me and you. I want to yell to the heavens and be proud and in saying 'I love you'..."
Is he trying to be polite or nice?
I think so...
For now I am quiet and not to speak of this.
For now I will not tell him what I think.
That I think of him constantly and he's the distraction....

There he goes again....
There is so much he says that I don't believe.
Is this only a dream? If so let me sleep forever...
Is this the real thing? Does he mean it....
Ga.. He's so cute..
I can't stand it... I need to scream it...
I need to say it write it
"I LOVE YOU. I'm in love I admit it!"
just laugh and be happy about it.
I just want to burst out to you and say it.
I want to meet you I want to see you..
I want to kiss you
hold you...
love you...
I want you to love me..
Kiss me
hold me... Someone like you
Someone. No I want you..
This is the first I have ever felt like this
I have no idea how to react! I don't know what to do with myself..
Why do you torture me unknowing and willingly..

He feels dumb I'm so nervous..
what do I say to that...
how do i respond...
God... I wish that he was writing this story..
But I'm afraid.. Fear is irrelevant...
He said it.. why can't you
he said he liked me a lot... like a lot lot...
ga.. just say it...... "Don't feel dumb.. It's sort of true.."
SAY IT... it would make things a lot easier....
so much easier... should I?
will it effect out friendship... oh Gosh..
please stop beating so fast so hard
I need you to keep going but slower...
So nervous.. So unready.. for him...
He deserves better... a lot better..
I said it.. I think... did I?
did he? I'm confused... so confused so happy
relieved... we are still friends i hope...
waiting for a response is killing me....
I wanna know i want to talk to him!!
it'd be so much faster....
I don't know.. I'm nervous.. so nervous....
my heart feels as if it stopped but then started again..
and is going so fast.. Love is a wonderful thing..
oh God.. please... don't let my heart stop...

My mouth is dry..
He responded...
Do I dare open it and read what it says...
I do I'm so nervous.. what did he say?
Not much.. Oh God... My heart stopped...
My stomach full of butterflies...
my head filled with thoughts..
I can't focus on anything else... its so hard
my mouth is dry and I wanna cry.
but happy tears not sad ones..
thats a first...11:11 I made a wish!
A wish for him... for me.. for us to be..
Oh goodness please respond.
OH GOSH a relief?
is he happy? does that mean happy?
I can't tell I can't read this one
This one book so far but yet so close.
An open book i have yet to understand...

2 more messages....
no response yet after that
speechless I am no words can describe my emotion
happy confused nervous in love? hopeless needy
everything thing! I don't know... i just don't
Oh God.. 2 minutes and I'm worried about no reply?
give him time.... breath soft soft breath..
JWD you do vex me so..with words you shoot me down..
and catch me. you swoon me with your personality and catch me with your understanding. Support me and heal me with love and careful words.. chosen ones
to lead up to this very moment..

oh wow hes so casual... how is this so!?
how come he doesn't rave like I do!
oh God I am mad if merry mad and sadness equal be
OH LORD...my heart is running out of time... im running out of time... Only 35 minutes...not long enough...
just stop time this one moment... let me have

Oh God... "let me start... Virginia. I like you a lot like.....lot,lot....hehe"
I resoponded to him I couldn't believe this was happening to me!!
ME I found love? maybe.. the thing I crave so much more than water itself.... the thing I have searched for most of my life..
the thing that i was waiting to happen..... i was anticipating.
OH LORD thank you for everything.. let is work out...please
my silent prayer.. hehe. my mouth is dry again and my heart pounds.. am i blushing I cant tell
i don't care..
My new craving...his lips on mine.. his body next to mine....him and me so close...so real....so amazing..

Oh man i feel like a girl
i haven't felt like this not since...
i don't care! no more past to dwell on!
No more NOW be happy he said it.. he said yes...its known..
so now what? OMG
so many things to do... so many people to tell..
will is be easier? him being a bigger distraction....
oh God...11:37 only 13 minutes... still not enough time...
I need more just pause there for a second... just stand still and let me have this one moment I pray...

Dang... time waits for no one...
not ever.. my heart flutters so fast and so unfairly...
i am breathing hard and can't help it...
oh man falling in love is as easy as a-b-c 1-2-3
but you need to find the right person...
yes its done we are happy its true both of us...
yaaay..